He is leaving...

Watch the sunrise
Say your goodbyes
Off we go
Some conversation
No contemplation
Hit the road

Car overheats
Jump out of my seat
On the side of the highway, baby
Our road is long
Your hold is strong
Please don't ever let go, oh no

I know I don't know you
But I want you so bad
Everyone has a secret
Oh, can they keep it?
Oh no, they can't

I'm driving fast now
Don't think I know how to go slow
Where you at now
I feel around
There you are

Cool these engines
Calm these jets
I ask you how hot can it get
And as you wipe off beads of sweat
Slowly you say, I'm not there yet

I know I don't know you
But I want you so bad
Everyone has a secret
Oh, can they keep it?
Oh no, they can't

I know I don't know you
But I want you so bad
Everyone has a secret
Oh, but can they keep it?
Oh no, they can't

This is the song I made love to. Yep, I have a confession. I have a secret and he is my secret. I cheated. I cheated on my partner for him. We made love and this song by MAroon 5 was in the background. This song and the song She Will Be Loved. I have been thinking about him these past few days. Yet when I received the SMS I was still surprised. Surprised that he still want to have anything to do with me.

He is leaving to further his studies. That was the news he conveyed. It is not as if we kept in touch but still I feel a sense of loss. An emptiness in my heart. I want to reach out and as I reach out I grasp nothing but thin air. That is how I feel. We cannot be together. We will hurt so many people if we ever get together>Yet not being able to see, hear him and touch him hurts so bad. After all these while, I thought the pain had somehow melted away. Today I was proved wrong. The heart still longs. The passion still burns. Do I still love him? No doubt about that. I cant even type, he can still bring tears to my eyes. I guess although we are no longer together I know, he is still around. Now he is leaving. Somehow, this farewell seems more definite and final.